Zen Insight #4: Dodging Bullets

"It is not about anger---it is about peace. It is not about power---it is about grace. It is not about knowing your enemy---it is about knowing yourself."     ---from the movie "Bulletproof Monk"

"But from each crime are born bullets that will one day seek out in you where the heart lies"    ---Pablo Neruda

The appointment

with the cardiologist

was uneventful.

They ordered tests

to be completed 

in a month, no

sense of urgency.

My anxiety about 

going back to Altoona

for a court hearing 

was unfounded. 

My lawyer told me

not to even show up!

There were damages

done    I lost friends

and my relatioship 

with my Zen Master

is questionable.

That happens

everytime I get up.

Hazard of being bipolar

Oh, well...

I live my life

with no regrets

I am who I am

and if someone 

cannot handle that

then they do not 

need to be a part 

of my life.

I try very hard

and strive to be 

courageous and

compassionate.

I have my moments

of being an asshole.

But as Tom Waits sings

"If I exorcize my devils/

my angels may leave too/

and when they leave/ 

they are so hard to find."

ZEN INSIGHT #4: DONE!